some shit

so courtney contacted me when i was en route to dinner plans and when i wasn't able to go i felt super bad. when i got home i IMed her

6/11/09, 11:58 PM
billy schmalfeldt: want me to come over?
courtney: (Autoresponse) scared. panicking. fuck. i've never felt so alone, heartbroken, and lost in my entire life.
courtney: nope
billy schmalfeldt: ok.
billy schmalfeldt: i just saw your away message and thought you needed company
courtney: i don't want to see anyone ever again
courtney: i thought i needed company about 7 hours ago
courtney: but i was wrong
billy schmalfeldt:
courtney: (Autoresponse) can't sleep. scared. panicking. fuck. i've never felt so alone, heartbroken, and lost in my entire life.
courtney: goodnight
billy schmalfeldt: good night courtney

then she stopped talking to me for a few weeks. she finally forgave me
with em

7/1/09, 10:51 PM
courtney: dude i miss you
billy schmalfeldt: i still wanna be your friend courtney
courtney: i do too
billy schmalfeldt: and i dunno what i did that made you hate me
courtney: i've just been so miserable
billy schmalfeldt: and i'm sorry for whatever it is
courtney: i never hated you
courtney: i shut down and i stopped talking to everyone
courtney: so much has happened

so then courtney invites me to this parade thing on the 4th that her grandpa was in. so she picks me up that morning with our friend chino and we drive to alameda. we were having an ok time watching all the floats and shit and she got bored after a while and complained and stuff. then her dog wandered over towards this pitbull and she freaks the fuck out and she goes "nacha get away from that stupid fuckin pitbull" and then shes like "i fucking hate pitbulls " and when we asked why she goes "theyre the most aggressive violent dogs out of all of them". We disagreed with her saying that its dependant on how theyre raised. and she goes "it has NOTHING to do with how theyre raised." chino says "ok" in response and she storms off with her dog. so we follow her and she says "stop following me and leave me alone". so we chill at a park bench and after a while we see her walk by again and i was like "should we see where shes going?" and we try to find her but couldnt and eventually we walk to the car and when we get to where we parked it was gone. so chino texts her with "im sorry if i said anything" and she replies with "you guys made me feel like shit all day" i ended up having to call mi madre for a ride. chino gets another text that says "i can't be around people right now" as we're dropping off chino at his car in front of her house we see her car in the drive way. so naturally i was hella pissed.

cue a few weeks of us not talking. she apologizes again and explains that she was stressed and just out of it and so i forgave her. needless to say i've been kinda standoffish with her. I havent seen her or anything since then. she IMs me the other day

7/19/09, 9:04 PM
courtney: soo
billy schmalfeldt: yo
courtney: I'm engaged
billy schmalfeldt: sweet
courtney: yea dude its pretty crazy
billy schmalfeldt: yeah

the guy she's engaged to is a guy shes been seeing since may so like 3 months.

she IMs me the other day
courtney: can i hire you to take pictures at my wedding?
billy schmalfeldt: yup
billy schmalfeldt: i charged my friend josh $400 to shoot his wedding
courtney: ok
courtney: hmmm
courtney: maybe not then
courtney: anthony has a friend that said he'd do it for hellllla cheap
billy schmalfeldt: ok
courtney: so how come u are hella different now?
billy schmalfeldt: i dont really see myself as different
billy schmalfeldt: but youre correct that we're not as close as we used to be
courtney: you always seem like you're mad at me or something
courtney: like you're purposely trying to be distant even
billy schmalfeldt: im definitely not mad at you
billy schmalfeldt: and maybe the latter part of what you said is true a lil bit
billy schmalfeldt: like i was burned twice by you
courtney: burned?
billy schmalfeldt: i dunno like
billy schmalfeldt: you stopped talking to me twice
courtney: i had a damn good reason to the first time
courtney: i hella thought u were a better friend than that
billy schmalfeldt: ok
billy schmalfeldt: you're aware you called me while i was driving right?
courtney: but whatever dude if you're just gonna always keep that in the back of your head and purposely be distant from me then there's really no reason to sit here and pretend to be my friend
billy schmalfeldt: i dunno what to say to that
courtney: you don't have to say anything billy. take care. bye.

so i mean i figure you fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. and if hang out around for a third time that just makes me a glutton for punishment, right? i dont think i'm in the wrong here, do you?

karaoke #3

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karaoke at pyramid brewery #2

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4th of july

spent at ashley's house, sans fireworks. click the pic.

for everyone who wanted to know

i went in yesterday and went straight to frank's office. we shook hands and he started showing me some old film splicer that he got from one of his old stores. He started making small talk and was very genial about the whole thing which was good and made me less nervous. He called in that same coworker that i mentioned in the last entry as a witness or something. Frank showed me the Insurance claim forms which very much stated that i would have to be arrested if Frank were to pursue the claim. There was a post it at the top that said "hold until frank meets with him". Frank told me about the claim and what was involved and stuff and then asked me how long i thought i'd been skimping on hours. i told him that i thought it was 3-4 months but i didn't wanna commit to a number and be wrong. so he pulled up all my files that i'd scanned and all my checks and basically made my coworker figure out a way to decipher how long i'd been there each day. He told frank that he felt uncomfortable playing executioner but didn't want to come to my defense because "no one here is ok with what you did". Anyway Frank went through the numbers and did the math and came out to a total of like $3564. He settled at $3000 and said that was all i had to pay him and what not. i gave him $2690 with the remaining $310 to be paid in 30 days. he said something like "you should never bad mouth your employers. you go upstairs and talk bad about your employer to your friends upstairs. there are ears everywhere you really dont know how small this world is." which makes me wonder who the canary is. but i digress. My old coworker just informed me that there are microphones upstairs, supposedly. how creepy. but anyway its done with and now i'm extremely poor. so. on goes the job hunt.